I have been writing on the birth parent blog here at AdoptionBlogs since October 2006. In that time I have written about many issues facing birth parents, adoptive parents, adoptees and expectant parents considering relinquishment. More over, during that time I have fought my way through therapy, had another son, started and finished other jobs, built a name for myself, failed, succeeded, dyed my hair, pierced my nose (a few times), endured a few speed bumps and road blocks in our open adoption relationship, gained and lost a bunch of weight and generally lived life. I have not always been perfect but, really, I have done the best that I could in all of those situations.
And now it’s time for me to close the door on this one.
I have decided to resign from my role as blogger here at AdoptionBlogs. It is a decision I have been struggling with for the past month. There are many reasons why it makes sense for me to leave now but there are just as many reasons why I hoped that I could work through things and stay.
To put it simply, I have hit a brick wall with the topic of adoption. I am not angry or bitter or disgruntled; I have run out of things to say. I have covered a wide range of topics on the subject of adoption as it affects birth parents and other members of the triad. I have been controversial. I have been challenging. I have been challenged. I have been wrong (what? you haven’t?). I have learned so much. I have pushed myself and pushed others to understand, to accept, to refuse to accept. I have talked about reform. I have participated in reform movements. I have talked the talk and walked the walk. And I am exhausted.
I feel as though I am not offering the readers what needs to be offered. I can no longer scour the net and report on every article and story written about adoption. I need a good, solid break from the constant that has been adoption in my professional life. I can’t get a break from it on a personal level and, really, having it on the professional level as well was a bit too much. More over, our readers deserve someone who still has the ability to separate personal from professional and deliver content that will help new, current and future birth parents as they make their way through their adoption journey. It is because of those readers that I know I need to step down. If I was still able to deliver what was needed, it would be a different story.
I’ll still be talking about adoption as it touches me on a personal level at my adoption blog. I do hope that whomever takes over the birth parent blog will do so in a kind, compassionate and passionate way as that is always what I hoped to deliver. I wish you all the best of luck in your lives. Don’t be strangers. Thank you all for helping me make sense of my own adoption story over the past few years.
And as I’ve always said, remember, you are never alone.