I harbored a lot of anger towards Munchkin's firstfather, L, for a very long time. I didn't understand how he could leave us high and dry and force me to make the hardest decision of my life while completely alone. Thankfully, therapy helped me work through some of those issues.

At that point, I was able to step back from my grief, guilt and sorrow and take a look at his own. He's not a man of visible emotions. I've known that for the almost ten years we have known each other. He is outwardly strong and powerful. He is intelligent... more

Just like any parent, I have dreams for the Munchkin. I've always felt, somewhere deep in the core of my being, that she was brought to this world to accomplish something amazing. What it is, we have yet to see, of course. Not too many people have accomplished their lifes' work by age three.

I have my dreams for her, of course.

I want her to be the doctor that cures breast cancer. I want her to be a great philanthropist and work with both the March of Dimes and Childrens' Miracle Network because I'm betting she'll understand... more

I have something to admit. Apparently it's True Blog Confession time at this blog and I've only been here for two days. I am not always secure in my role as Munchkin's firstmom. I said it. It's out in the universe. Yet the Universe continues to spin and life has not ended. You know, minus poor Pluto. I know this is an unexpected statement from me as I portray myself as calm (most of time), cool and collected when it comes to being a firstmom. I am human. I get confused. My heart hurts just like anyone else's does when poked and prodded.

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When I was visiting with my son Chris recently, we talked about various adoption issues. He mentioned that a cousin of his was trying to adopt internationally. In past conversations, he has told me that there is a lot of adoption within his extended adoptive family.

Because his life growing up adopted has been a good experience, he is very enthusiastic about adoption in general. He does know that my experiences and feelings about adoption are not as rosy as his.

After telling me that his cousin is in the process of adopting, he mentioned that... more